What a whirlwind. Losing to New South Wales was not fun, it never is. It is the hardest lose to take, out of all of the games of rugby league I've ever played.
I think we came into this year's game really well prepared. All the people behind the scene - Mitch from Queensland Rugby League, Jo Barrett our manager, and every other person, they did a really good job.
Camp ran really smoothly. I was really impressed with it all, and without all of these people working as hard as they do - day and night, this game wouldn't happen.
The game... the first half was awesome. We really stuck to our game plan and it showed, being up 4-0 at half time.
I broke my nose right before half time. I think there was about two minutes to go. If you re watch you'll see I dive on the ball, somebody dives on me and unfortunately her knee hit me in the face, not ideal at all.
I missed the majority of the half time chat from Jason Hetherington; I was being tended to by the doctor. Mandatory visit due to a head injury.
The second half, we didn't come out firing like what New South Wales did. They persisted and didn't go away from their game plan. We did and they reaped the benefits of it unfortunately.
This year was meant to be our year. We all came in with the same vibes, feeling really good about it all. We had that really great feeling about camp. We were just unlucky on the day and that's when it matters most.
But looking forward 12 months, I think if we can get it on home soil, if we can play for that trophy in Queensland, I think we'll work even harder to not let it go back over the border.
In regards to a location, I know the fans want one of the big stadiums, like Suncorp Stadium, but unfortunately we're not quite at crowd capacity for that one - hopefully one day. I'd like to see it played at Sunshine Coast Stadium.
I think the Queensland Representative Player numbers being out there now is fantastic and inspirational for all of the girls coming through.
I was given mine, No.106, the first year I played, in 2015. It is such a special thing.
For the first time ever, we were given captain's run jerseys. Every player who has come before us has their names printed on the back, which I think is just monumental. It honestly gave us all goosebumps. When they brought them out, it was a room of smiles and tears. It's just such a fantastic thing.
I think it's great to recognise those people who came before you. There's never going to be another QRP No.1 like Karyn Murphy and how privileged are we to have her as an assistant coach.
I think it's really great those future girls will know who came before them and hopefully it will inspire them even more.
For now, it's time to reflect on the game just gone, work on what's in my control and let go of what's out of my control in order to move forward in the 2019 NRLW season with the Brisbane Broncos.
And I say, BRING IT ON!
