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Runaway Bay Seagulls centre Jamie 'Bubbles' Anderson is covered from head to toe in tattoos.
He sports a bushy ginger beard and looks like the famed American mountain man Grizzly Adams.
At first glance he seems more like an axe wielding lumberjack than someone who loves crashing into rival forwards looking to bash him into submission.
But first impressions aren't always right as Anderson showed ahead of playing for the Queensland Rangers against the NSWRL Pioneers at Pizzey Park on the Gold Coast on Sunday.
Anderson is a pretty decent player who, with an ounce of luck, could have cracked the NRL.
But he accepts where his rugby league journey has taken him and is happy where it has ended - back on the Gold Coast.
He was a key member of the Australian Universities side which won back-to-back World Cups (2014-17) in the UK and Australia - a major highlight of his career.
Anderson has been on the NRL's doorstep a few times, firstly with Cronulla and then again with Manly Sea Eagles, but things didn't quite work out.
Then, one day in 2014 he learned one of his good rugby league mates, Chris Kitching, a former teammate and rival on the field, had taken his life at just 23 years of age.
His outlook on life took a turn...he admits it hit him pretty hard.
Here was a talented young player who had just represented Queensland for the Rangers and was playing A Grade for Gold Coast club Tugun.
Yet for some reason, Kitching was unable to cope with life's pressures and his deepening depression finally claimed his young life.
Anderson, who played for the Queensland Rangers in 2015, described the loss of his mate as a highly emotional time for him.
"My mate (Kitching) passed away the year before and he had played for the Rangers that year.
"We all wore No.16 on our jerseys to honour him because that was the number he wore the previous year playing for Rangers.
"It was a really nice touch.
"I hold it in high regard above everything."
Anderson said too many young rugby league players had been lost to the black dog in recent years.
"It's in double digits now," he bemoaned.
"It's tough for young kids, the pressure they feel to be successful."
Anderson doesn't have the answers.
But he is a massive fan of R U OK? Day and would like to see the NRL get behind a round to support people, not just rugby league players, suffering from depression.
"Rugby league is a very blokey bloke industry where guys tough it out, Anderson said.
"I think the players would totally support it."
Rugby league has a higher than average suicide rate demographically despite having some programs in sport to help its young players negotiate those tough early years.
Meanwhile Anderson says he gets chills just thinking about pulling the maroon jumper again.
"You're going to war basically, that's what he feels like when you pull on that Maroon jersey, there's so much history that goes with it," Anderson said.
"You've grown up watching Queensland play, you feel it, you're excited to wear it."
He said the Queensland Rangers provided an opportunity for players outside the Intrust Super Cup and in remote regions to get some exposure and push their cause to play in higher competitions.
"I think it's great especially for some of the other regions outside the Gold Coast. It gives guys in central and northern Queensland something to strive for to break into the Queensland Cup.
"I played with young Billy Walters (son of Queensland coach Kevin Walters) and he is the Intrust Super Cup system now.
"He's got the skill and the attitude go further but he is in a pretty tough system with Melbourne behind Ryley Jacks and Brodie Croft.
"I played with Billy and Brodie at Easts a few years ago and they were the best halves I ever played with.
"He is in the right system but there's a lot of quality players in that system."
Anderson is happy with his football playing with Runaway Bay and with his job as a foreman for the Scentre Group - better known as Westfield until undergoing a recent name change.
"I've gone from a labourer to a foreman so I am pretty happy," he said.
His dad Ross is his site manager.
"Dad is great, he looks after everyone.
"We normally have a footy crew as our labourers."
